you know what to do....

what a difference a weekend makes.

big changes @ the state, i'm none-too-happy about it. i had a weird feeling friday as i spent the afternoon with my sis... (vacancy, 2nd worst movie ever... keep reading)... friday night i headed over to sarah's place for the girl party, and had just decided to myself that i would allow roxy to have all the fun and *not* go to work to suffer through the crap-warmers for the billionth time. but just as the party got underway, a phone call signaled the beginning of the Strangest Weekend Ever. i finally pouted my way to the theatre where the show was already underway sans one very important staff member. it was a smaller crowd than normal, and much more angry. weird vibes in the air. Andrea came in and just after midnight we made our way to the time of rags to check out one of her latest conquests. definitely wasn't a crazy night like Tommy Tuesdays, but it was nice to cruise around in her convertible.

saturday morning i reflected on staff changes as i drove to work (late as usual)... after i arrived matt delivered the blow about the Other Big Staff Change that had occured Friday night. ugh ugh ugh!!! i spent most of saturday in mourning, reflecting the entire buildup to the blowout.... i'm pretty sure i went through all the traditional stages of grief: denial/anger/bargaining/depression... i'm not quite ready to move on to acceptence, but a late night run-in with the man himself made me feel a little better.

the problem with working at a place where you become a family is that weekends like this past one are hard to figure out. some people focus on the business aspect, immediately dividing up job responsibilites and discussing scheduling conflicts. some people focus on the emotional aspect, trying to figure out where it all went wrong, why the person snapped, and what should be done now. some people, however, carry on exactly as if nothing had happened, which pleases the business people and annoys the emotional people.

i am just sad about it. i want to go back in time to last summer when everything was fun and happy.

late late late saturday night was crazy hiijinks with brian and the BWD (boring white dude)... i love that brian doesn't mind entertaining BWDs when i just can't be bothered to fake interest anymore. sunday morning was a quick escape in order to spend the day of mother with my mother (and sis)... (georgia rule, worst movie ever)... went home to recoop before heading downtown to the Aminator's birthday explosion. good times! :)

~cfc

"lend me some sugar,
i am your neighbor..."
~O.K.