i understand what i am still to proud to mention... to you

i think i'm in love with andy samburg. i actually got excited tonight when i realized i was leaving work early enough to catch all of 'snl'... i am 25, and officially more interested in 'snl' than going out and socializing. i am sad. and old. old and sad.

the male-whore conversation last week sparked an entire week of male-whore analysis between me and my manager... the debate became so intense that he came to work today and yelled at me for making him feel so guilty that he woke up today and sent his girlfriend a dozen roses. hahaha. i was impressed, perhaps there's hope for all reformed male-whores out there... (although he insists no male-whore can ever be totally reformed.) i haven't gotten flowers from a boy since approximately 2002... which is just sad! (have i mentioned i'm old & sad?)

anyway, the male-whore conversation eventually branched out and became a comparison of male-whores and female-whores... or as my manager likes to call them, "sluts"... i don't agree with the term slut (i prefer 'female-freedom-fighter), but i can definitely think of a couple girls i know that are usually single, and seem to be more comfortable that way, and like to have a good time... you might know one yourself... [you might be reading the blog of one right now, for example....] ;) but, as i suggested to my manager, i fully believe that at the heart of every female-freedom-fighter, is a good girl aching to find love but not willing to settle. that is, if a girl found someone truly worth it, she'd give up the single life in a heartbeat. my manager tried to convince me that male-whores have the same need running through their veins as well, but i'm still skeptical... i think male-whores get way too comfortable with their lifestyle, and cannot handle the idea of one woman for years on end, to the degree that they are hesitant to even try monogamy, unlike their female counterparts.

i dunno... i suppose all of this malewhore/femalefreedomfighter conversation is just a growing impatience about the various situations in my life.

my cousin called this week to tell me she wants me to get to know this cute friend of hers. it's amazing how i lived in harrisonburg for an entire year and couldn't find anyone entertaining, but now that i'm gone there are single, cool, boys-a-plenty.

headed to the 'burg this week to get fitted for my bridesmaid's dress... apparently i will be wearing indigo... who knew? have i mentioned i want my wedding to be in a vegas chapel??? hehehe.

~courtney

"you know what i like about you? your modesty!!" - my manager makes an insightful observation. hehehe.

Leo (July 23-Aug. 22)
Is it getting hot in here, or is it just you? Wherever you go, you manage to attract attention even though you're not trying. You've got the sizzle and the steak. Work your charm on any grumpy types.