I got to fold because these hands are too shaky to hold

yay! it's august. my favorite month, for obvious reasons.... :)

today i received two important phone calls, one i can discuss and one i cannot. the discuss-able one was from the lovely sarah, a la state, inviting me to another pool party. this one was considerably more quiet than the last one, and definitely more memorable... and by memorable, i mean literally, as i am able to recall all the details, not just the ones before 3AM. i felt a lot better after the pool, partly because of swimming, but also because it was nice to find out i'm not the only one that feels out of the loop sometimes. perhaps, (haha... perhaps)... okay, *certainly* i jump to conclusions too often, and i need to stop assuming the world revolves around me. it's a terminal illness.

~courtney

"And I went crazy again today,
looking for a strand to climb
Looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn't stay,
wouldn't put his lips to mine,
And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said, "Honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified
Come on put a little love here in my void"
He said, "It's all in your head"
And I said, "So's everything," but he didn't get it..."
~f. apple

still on my fiona high ;)