how long do you want to be loved?

finally, a nice long break in the middle of my work day. i'm offically done with being a teacher. the rewards simply do not measure up to the drawbacks. i have a month left, then i'm unemployed once again. save the state, of course. i was hoping to spend most of july in london, reconnecting with everyone. only time will tell if this ends up happening or not. if i get the perfect job in philly or elsewhere, i will not be able to take off the time. regardless, i'm more than ready to escape DC. time for the next grand adventure. :-)

LOST! season finale tonight!!! wooooo hoooo!!! i'm so excited i could scream. i love charlie and sayid. i sometimes wonder if this love will ever fade away.

the new dixie chicks album is more amazing than words can express. i love these three talented ladies for being brave enough to speak out at a time when no one was speaking out.... and i love them even more for listening to the critics that said "shut up and sing".... because that's exactly what they did... they shut up and put out an album more stinging and insightful than anything they could have said to the naysayers in 2003.

the past two months have been so eye-opening. i realize i'm in my mid-twenties, and prone to crisis and drama all the time, but i honestly feel like i've had more than my share lately. sometimes i feel like i do more damage to myself than anyone could possibly ever do to unto me. for the first time in my life, i think i'm basically in love with someone, and that's really hard to say considering that i've never been in love with anyone ever. i have no idea if it's actually love, and i definitely don't know what to do about it, but the strangest part is that i'm actually ok with not knowing. i mean, let's face it, if the whole situation disappeared tomorrow and nothing ever happened, i'd probably be better off anyway, right?

the wedding and assorted pre-wedding festivites signifigantly altered my perception of my family. my mom is actually a lot more understanding than i give her credit for, and my father continues to shock me by saying things that prove, without a shadow of a doubt, that i am a younger replica of him to a fault. talking with lindsay and whitney after the wedding made me realize i am still treating them (and claire) like 12 year olds... and i need to let them grow up and experience life on their own. when i was an 18 year old i was convinced i had the world figured out... and i need to stop acting like they're practically juvenile delinquents when they're actually pretty amazing kids.

pete yorn announced an acoustic tour... stopping in philly on..... AUGUST 11th!!!!!!!!!!!! what what????? HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!

~cfc

"as you wander through this trouble world
in search of all things beautiful
you can close your eyes when you're miles away
and hear my voice like a serenade...
how long do you want to be loved?
is forever enough, cause i'm never never givin you up..."
~dixie chicks