i wanna shine so bright it hurts

been a couple days. so much happening.

after an excessively shitty week, (shitty car stuff, shitty boy stuff, shitty friend stuff, shitty tour stuff, shitty work stuff) i finally broke down last thursday night and admitted the dark cloud over my head isn't going away anytime soon. i issued a plea of help to one of the only people in my life i can *always* count on, and boy howdy, did i ever get some help. :)

cut to sunday night: an intense four hour therapy session followed by a celebratory trip to tower records. i will never be the type of person to willingly admit that i can't handle my own problems.... and it was definitely hard to vocalize some of my less glamorous issues.... but if there's one person in my life i can trust to not judge, it's my therapist. ;) i will definitely be coming back for a follow-up appointment. we came up with a list of problems, possible reasons, and potential solutions. i have high hopes for myself.

as much as i bitch and moan about trivial dramas in my life, i would take on stupid boys and sold-out concerts anytime if it meant solving some of the deeper issues at hand. it takes so much more effort to come to terms with the real problems life throws at you. but, as my therapist pointed out, i am a strong person and i can handle things better than most... it's just a matter of not letting things get to the point of no return.

at tower i picked up the new teddy thompson (exactly 2 days AFTER he played DC... rock on, courtney)... and I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my god. such a fantastic album. i think it's been out in the UK for like 3 months, but it just came out here. sooooooooooooooooooooooooo amazing. in related news, martha's playing DC in april!!! woot!

now i have a fantastic weekend to look forward to (finally getting out of VA!!) followed by the fabulous mr. blunt at the 930 on monday... and the inevitable return of showstoppers! woo hoo!! (wait, is james blunt the guy that sings 'your body is a wonderland!!' yes!!! i LOVE that song!!!)

~courtney

"i wanna be high-strung
make people wonder what they've done
no one will talk back
cause you'll never know when i might snap
i wanna shine so bright it hurts"
~t. thompson