the past week has certainly been an interesting one. it's no secret that i've been feeling a little glum for the past several months. partly it's the weather, seasonal depression-gotta love it, but partly it's situational. questions cloud my mind about where i want to be, and why. i adore my job at the state, but that's the end of my love for the DC area. people are disappointing as well. this week has amassed a stockpile of unreturned phone calls, text messages, and emails from a trio of individuals i had begun to trust since the new year. but it's certainly nothing new to say that people can be hurtful, and only time will tell if this trio somehow manages to redeem themselves, so i'm not terribly bothered by it.
no, what really saddens me is thinking about my lowest point in london, (that fateful night in june if you're unsure), and remembering the overwhelming support i received from the greatest group of friends i've had in my life. even besides that one night, i can come up with countless examples of friends who devoted and true, caring without selfish-ness, and loving without bias. people i had never met before february.... people i will never forget. here in the states, with the exception of the amazing mr. y and ms. w, i have nothing like what i had six months ago and i feel increasingly empty because of it.
*sigh*
in related news, i had perhaps the most funny phone conversation i've ever had (in, what, seven years??) with yusef. literally, fall-on-the-ground-laughing funny. i don't know how he does it, but he always manages to put a comical spin on my self-pity... i couldn't love him more for it. to top it off, he left me a fabulous v-day wake-up message as well. that's what friends are for!!
thank god tomorrow is a new episode of lost AND project runway. love it.
~courtney
"if this were a cartoon there'd be a picture of me, looking at my phone, and then the sound 'waaap-waaaaaaaaaaaa' cause that's how you made me feel."
~the amazing mr. y
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
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Hey honey,
Just get through all that Visa paperwork and get your ass over here!!! (sorry to be so blunt, but your unhappiness makes me so sad, and this "wake-up and get moving" call is the only thing I seem to be able to do....) It would be wonderful to have you around - even though I'm not in London myself. You'd be a LOT closer, i.e. 1.5 hours by plane, and low cost carriers would get me there or you here for under 50 quid (I know you say "bucks", but you should better start to get used to it again ;-)).
Anyway, take care, petal, and make sure to stay in touch. Maybe see you soon?!? Btw, please send your mobile number via email, so I can txt you...
x G
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