While I was watching you did a slow dissolve...

the end of the year is (finally?) drawing near. i'm relieved. i'm ready to get started on 2006. my life is so radically different from twelve months ago it boggles my mind. i've been really moody for the past week or so... [so what else is new? i can hear the cries now... but this is different... trust me.] december has been stressful, to say the least. good and bad.
after closing out the dmb winter tour in psu/philly/boston i came back to DC for one night only, then headed back up north to nyc for one night only of vodka & rope.... got a lil' tipsy (shocker!) and managed to completely wipe out on the sidewalk, banging up my knee and destroying my pride... which resulted in, (perhaps), the sweetest gesture i've received latey.... sweetest just because it seemed so natural and nonchalant. i was so thrown-off by all the sweetness i didn't even bother to say thank you... but then again i've never been good at common courtesy... especially when drunk.
came home with just five shopping days left til xmas... only to receive a double-dose of bad family news. i left NOVA in a big ol' hurry to see if i could help at all... and i think i was a bit of a help, which is good... but starting the family holiday debacle early only made me want to leave that much earlier... so, monday night i drove home breathing silk cut after silk cut (oh, my stock was replenished, did i mention that?? woo hoo!) and collapsed into bed with my two little darlings.
now i'm trying to finish out the year quietly and safely. i've maxed out my limit on drama in '05, i think. living at the state theatre this week, ran into an old friend after the [benevento/russo duo featuring mike gordon(!)] show last night, which was so great! nothing like seeing an unexpected face in crowd.
i'm so excited about january 14th i could scream. [ http://hustle.amctv.com/ ] when this show becomes a huge success in the states, just remember that i loved it first!!! don't believe me?? check out april 13th, baby! http://courtneyinlondon.blogspot.com/2005/04/you-know-i-wish-we-had-more-time.html
ahhhh, that was back when i couldn't breathe... before i realized how wonderful london was...

speaking of which, got a sweet xmas card from mark & gaynor & family... :) ... i've been working on my big year-end concert list of 2005, and it's actually depressing me a lot... not because of the actual list (it's a terrific list if i do say so myself!!! yusef should & will be green with envy... 'no money'... whatever!!!) but just because i've been thinking about all the shows i saw in london... and the (mostly) great people i saw them with... and, well what i can i say? i still miss london a lot. i think my homesickness will go away once i'm out of DC, but who knows... i'm giving myself til march to find a job in philadelphia and if i can't, then i'm back to london, no matter what.

~courtney

"Snowflakes are falling
I'll catch them in my hands
Snowflakes are falling now
you’re my long lost friend"
~d.gray