to all my dreamers out there - i'm with you

sometimes i think i reach new heights in being a huge hypocrite. by that i mean, the expectations i have for other people compared to way i behave is laughable. do as i say, want, or need, but not as i do. that's my motto.

speaking of great expectations, i've decided that the worst feeling in the world has got to be disappointment. not disappointment from missing the train, or getting a lackluster christmas present... but the disappointment that accompanies the intense pain inflicted by those you trust the most. when you allow someone close enough to you to truly hurt your feelings, you feel many things when they eventually do hurt your feelings... anger, sadness, desperation.... but larger than all this is disappointment. disappointment in them for violating your trust, and disappointment in yourself for allowing them to have so much power over you.

someone close to me has been hurt badly by such disappointment in the past several months... sucks.

~courtney

"And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
goodbye to you..."
~mb