I live with the notion
That I don't need anyone but me

thank god tomorrow's thursday because i couldn't handle it being any earlier in the week than that. three dmb shows in five days, i'm worn out!

in related news, i had to play hardball with geoff this week, and i'm pretty sure that no one was the victor. suffice it to say, i ended up taking the MOST unlikely of all people to the merriweather show tonight... my BROTHER. that's right, my sworn enemy, the bastard child that offically started ruining my life the MINUTE he was born, Mr. David Caldwell. i looked at it as the ultimate act of my pure DMB love... i'm willing to even share the dmb joy with those i hate the most. and guess what? it was actually really fun. between him and toni (the person i took to the nissan show), it really revitalized me being around people who DON'T take fantastic seats for granted the way i do. both toni & david were practically peeing in their pants as we walk down closer and closer to the stage. i remember when i used to act like that... i miss those days. when everything was so new and exciting no matter how many times i saw the band in one summer. i'm getting old. and i just EXPECT really good seats. i try not too, but i do. i'm a bad fan. [btw, i had 3rd row center for hershey, 6th row DEAD center for nissan, and 4th row center tonight at merriweather. although i must say, merriweather's so small and narrow that 4th row there would be 2nd row anywhere else.)

i saw a lot of the same people i saw at hershey oddly enough, but not a lot from nissan. (david was like, "jesus it's like some freak dmb community you're the leader of" ... haha)

between the stress of dealing with geoff and working at my new job and attending three very VERY good shows where i was just too close to the band not to dance my ass off, i'm ready to collapse for about 10 years.

i'm probably going to regret what happened with geoff. but what's done is done.

~courtney "act first think later" caldwell

"I think the world of you
All of my heart I do
Blood through my veins for you
You alone have all of me
I give my world to you
To you I will be true"
~dmb