so don't you bring me down today
well well well. i've possibly been through more "drama" in the past month than i ever have before... haha, who am i kidding? my whole life is drama, this certainly hasn't been the worst of it.

but there is a lot to discuss, and i want to discuss it and this is a perfect day b/c everyone's out of the office and i have plenty of time to write. so let's start at the very beginning... a very good place to start.

i spent last weekend mostly with my father in blacksburg for my cousin Sadler's graduation. it was good time with my family. ran into some people i haven't seen forever. over dinner one night my father asked me some point-blank questions about my life, why i'm searching for DC-only jobs and what i hope to accomplish with grad school. my father is the only person in my life that asks the questions i'm too scared to ask my self, and it was very sobering when i realized i didn't have the answers. why am i in such a rush to return home? is grad school really what i want right now? *sigh* i just don't know. a year ago this time i was sure that i was moving to California with tina... then i was sure that i'd be starting at mason in the fall... now i'm not sure about anything.

dad & i went to see "troy" saturday night and i realized that orlando bloom will always look incredibly hot. the whole movie was very good, i thought. it's bizarre how much i look like Helen... i hope no one starts a war over me... ;) kidding... [i mean, i'm kidding about the war thing b/c undoubtedly some one will start a war over me eventually.. i'm that amazing!]

i missed ashley's bridal shower on sunday. i'm very sad about that. i've seen pictures online and it looks like they had a lot of fun. i can't believe she's getting married in less than a month.... that's SO far away from where i am! i just can't imagine it.

tuesday night tina called and filled me in on her adventures in london. i am still incredibly jealous. just for kicks, i played a fun little comparison game with her.. "oh, so on sunday, while you were roaming around covent garden with a hot australian boy i was battling the forces of nature in my grandparents barn..." tina has wild ideas of the two of us going to london to work for six months. there are apparently programs in this world that make it very easy to do that. it's not sounding so bad... in fact it's sounding very very good. put off getting a "real" job for another year or so??? count me in!!!

either way we have decided we will definitely spend new years in london this year! yay!

wednesday morning i rather abruptedly learned that the irish boy was returning home. other than becoming acquainted with yours truly (of course), nothing was working out for him so he jumped the pond. i was sadder than i expected to be, given that i only knew him for a couple weeks. but he was incredibly charming and listened to very very good music. ... just one more reason to flee with tina to europe, i suppose. :)

i guess that brings us up to speed. i wish certain friends of mine would return phone messages, but oh well. OH! i ordered my snazzy new phone online. should have it up and running by next week.

this weekend i have my piano recital on saturday evening. i think my father's driving up for it... which is a little silly if you ask me but oh well. i'm playing pachebel's canon in D. so pretty. i might have to escape to NOVA for a few minutes, i feel like i haven't been up there in 10 years and i might miss out on the cicadas entirely.

~courtney

"and ours is a road that is strewn with goodbyes,
and as it unfolds, as it all unwinds,
remember your soul is the one thing you can't compromise.
step out of the shadows, we're gonna go where we can shine."
~david gray